My best friend and I decided we wanted to lose weight.
But working out was too hard for us. We would try, but give up. Running was boring and hurt too much and I just didn’t have the endurance to do in home workouts.
My best friend wanted to though. It was a constant battle between her wanting to workout and me not liking the discomfort I felt. My best friend could keep going but I decided that we would stop.
I turned the focus to food.
Before we would eat junk food whenever we wanted: fast food, cookies, cake, soda, chips, pizza, corn dogs, frozen burritos. My friend always ate I what I ate, even if she really wanted something else.
I was sooo tired of being overweight! I hated myself for eating sooo much junk food, and it was my friends fault! Why didn’t she stop me! She knows what my goal is, so why is she not making it easier and helping me stay on track.
We were best friends but we would fight all the time. It typically ended with me telling her how much I hated her and how ugly and worthless she was. The whole time I would be ripping her apart, I KNEW it was my fault I felt this way. But I was so frustrated I had to take it out on her. She didn’t stop me from eating the bad food! And she didn’t MAKE me workout harder. So she was to blame too, atleast I felt that way.
The next day I decided I was no longer going to eat. WE were no longer going to eat. My friend would complain about how hungry she was. She would constantly ask me if we could eat, I would tell her she was fat. And she would always be fat if she didn’t stop eating. I hated her, I was happy she was hungry. She should be hungry! It’s her fault we are both so fat and ugly.
That whole week all we ate was a cup of soup and an orange.
I felt fat, tired and ugly. My friend was fat, tired, an ugly.
I was crying one night in my bathroom. I just wanted to be pretty! Why could I not be pretty! I was so ugly.
My friend was there, I started telling her how ugly she was. She was fat and I was fat. You could tell how tired she was, she didn’t look healthy, she looked so sad…I was staring at her and I couldn’t take it anymore. I hit her.
And as the mirror broke. I could see my best friend staring back at me through all the broken pieces of the mirror. Crying.
If you treated your best friend how you treat you body….how many friends would you have left? You have your body for life. They can never leave you. Love them.
Create a healthy life to be happy about. It will take effort and some times you will feel discomfort. But it will be worth it. I promise.
You’re beautiful, even if you can’t see it
Who says you need to order carry out for fried rice?
- 1/2 Cup brown whole grain rice
- Onion, Diced
- Carrots, Diced
- 1 Egg
- Olive Oil
- Soy Sauce
- Steam Rice for 45 min, add a little bit of vinegar with the water to make sticky
- Dice veggies, throw into pan with oil
- Throw on rice and cake down
- Cook for 4-5 min on medium-high heat
- Flip/Mix Rice
- Cook for another 4-5 min
- Move the rice over for the scrambled egg, dice and mix as the egg cooks
- Throw on soy sauce, let simmer for ~30-45 seconds
- Eat :3
LET ME TELL YOU A THING IM THE BEST AT FRIED RICE! IM THE KING OF FRIED RICE!
I make fried brown rice like 4 Times a week, so good and easy.
Will do this
There’s a way easier way to make fried rice.
Ingredients: brown rice, egg, soy sauce, chives, sesame oil
Scramble the egg in the sesame oil, add the rice, add the chives, add soy sauce and sesame oil to taste. Voila
Another overdue update. I know, I know. Sorry. I’ll try to keep this brief.
Ok, so, I don’t think I told you guys that the battery for the watch portion of my heart rate monitor died. Well, it did, so for a while I was kinda “going in blind” when I did my work outs. I know some calories burned is better than no calories burned and lots of people lose weight without heart rate monitors, but since I’ve started using it, I really like knowing and I find it helps me to push myself when I can see that my heart rate isn’t as fast as it should be.
So, ya, finally got a new battery and then got back to it. 2 weeks ago, I went to the gym for 4 days in a row. Last week, another 4 days. This week, I’ve already gone once. Gonna go tomorrow after work and then try for Thursday as well. I’ve also kinda switched things up a bit. I’m been using hand weights more; for bench presses, for squats, and for overall arm strength. I’ve upped the weights recently too, so that makes me feel good. And strong, of course. lol
Also, my weight is starting to come down a bit slowly. It’s not much but it’s something. And I was able to ALMOST have a pre-planned low calorie day. I had planned to have an all cereal day. Basically, a cup of cereal and a cup of milk 4 times in a day. However, that would equal about 1140 cals and I know you need like 1200 just for your body to function, so I added a couple apples to the mix. The only unplanned thing I ended adding to the plan was a McRib patty (which was about 300+ cals), so no biggie and it’s too much to type to explain the situation. I think it went well though, and I’m hoping to do a cereal/yogurt day tomorrow. :)
K, one last update. I went shopping today a bought a couple nice looking plaid button up shirts. They were L’s, but Old Navy L’s (which tend to run larger than the actual size), but I didn’t really care about the size, I was just happy cuz I’d been looking for nice plaid shirts for a while and happy that I looked good in them. So, I decided to wear one out to dinner and a movie tonight and wanted to pair it with this skirt I hadn’t worn in a while. The last time I tried the skirt on, it didn’t really fit nicely, so I figured that would be the case today and I’d have to wear something else. Well, it fit. I mean it’s still not as “comfortable” as I’d like it to be, but it was absolutely wearable and I thought I looked pretty damn good. Sorry I don’t have a pic, but you can take my word for it. ;)
Alright, well, that was a little longer than I thought it would be, but I guess that’s what happens when I wait so long to post. Will try to be more diligent in the future. Later taters.
“What you see here is a 70 pound difference. I grew up a bigger girl; but for 8 years of my life, I lived in a mental prison. I constantly counted calories and obsessively worked out to an unhealthy size 0 with 9% body fat. I lost my period for five years. My butt cheeks didn’t even touch! (Yep, you heard me…) Nothing mattered but performing my rituals and compulsions I conjured up in my head. I did not have any space in my brain to see the world around me, connect with people, and ultimately live. Constantly striving to be something else, you do not have time to think about the important things in life — friends, loved ones, learning, giving back, following your passions, etc. I was always thinking, “When I weigh ___, I’ll be happy… my life will be perfect.” This is the biggest lie in the world. Life is here, now. You cannot wait for a certain event or milestone to truly begin living your life.
So with time, countless doctors, helpful books, and role models in the plus industry, I began to heal. The transformation was not easy (it was actually quite hellish), but I made a decision to choose freedom. I started listening to my body and respecting it. I eat organic and all natural whole foods, and I love working out and being active. I want to prove to people that you can be healthy at any size. My motto is to just be as healthy as I can be (body, mind, & soul), and wherever I end up, is where I’m supposed to be . It is my passion to show people that once you are true to your authentic self, doors begin to open and you can truly live your life to the fullest.”